Being thoroughly immersed in chemobrain these days, there are times when I can’t focus well on books with depth and substantial meanings or themes. I’ve been longing to read some of these books on my shelves for long-time3, but chemobrain or being intensely involved in work, and now back to chemobrain has put a lot of the more intellectually challenging books off the table for me.
But I find little ways to squeak them in – partly by distracting the chemobrain into thinking that it’s getting pap, then sneaking something edgy in; but of course I have to finish it off with pap to keep it cool and the chemobrain fooled.
My latest pulp fiction sandwich consisted of Death in the Clouds by Agatha Christie; the meat of the sandwich was The Complete Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi; and the pure whitebread closure was The 5th Horseman by James Patterson and Maxine Paetro.
Not much to say about either Death in the Clouds or The 5th Horseman – I mentioned on my main blog that I finally ran into an Agatha Christie book that I could not estomac, as Hercule Poirot says – I actually had to force myself to pick it up – although I have to admit that I was slightly surprised about the perp – I’d twigged to the person who was unexpectedly involved very early on, and had even guessed her identity; but it wasn’t until the heroine starts having another love interest that I realized there was something not quite right about the original love interest. Even then, I didn’t suspect him as the perp – guess in some ways it was better than I expected it to be based on my lack of interest initially.
The 5th Horseman was an example of Patterson’s usual work on the Women’s Murder Club Series, but I don’t really consider Lindsay pitching a fit about not wanting to be Lieutenant out of the blue, and then dropping it right back into the blue to be character development. Yuki was supposed to show how deep she is by freaking about her mother’s death, and then obsessing about the person she thinks is the murderer; but then to be all back together in days looking gorgeous, self-possessed, and happy just didn’t cut it with me. Especially since the guy she thought was the murderer turned out not to be “it” – and we only find out who really did it after we see her being socially poised and thrilled with her new job, after a couple months of not washing, stalking the doctor in question, forgetting to change into real clothes. Perhaps there will be some indication in future books about how she focused her obsession into her new job with the DA, but *describing* that she has a new job with the DA “putting away bad guys” isn’t enough to show how she turned herself around so quickly.
So there’s the pap.
Persepolis, by Marjane Satrapi, is a wonderful graphic novel about growing up as a woman in Iran during the 70s and 80s. I certainly can’t compare my childhood to hers in any direct way, but as I read the book I felt everything she felt, and it reminded me of growing up in a house where I was expected to be a girly girl instead of the tomboy that I really was. To be subjected to wearing the headscarf without being given a choice, to be raised in a liberal family who all were forced to act in ways that were contrary to their beliefs, to be given the opportunity to leave but still go back to find out who one really is speaks about how strongly our childhood impacts our adult selves.
One of the most powerful aspects for me is how Marjane soaks up the party line when she is a child – to the point where she believes her parents are disillusioned traitors. As she grows older and more understanding, she starts to see that she was sucked in, and that she was the disillusioned one, both by believing the government’s lies, and again when she realizes that they are lies. When she moves to Vienna as a teenager, she turns into a rebel because she doesn’t fit in with the “normal” girls; she doesn’t really fit in with the punk crowd she falls in with either; and she had trouble learning to fit in with anyone, even after going back home to find herself.
It takes her 10 years to mature enough and really understand what her parents and grandmother had told her before – that she was not meant to live in Iran. Raised in a liberal home suddenly shunted back into a highly traditional culture, she had the taste of freedom that would never truly be hers in Iran. But as a teenager in Austria, she was not able to appreciate the freedom she had, and like so many youths of so many cultures, the freedom went to her head. Finally, she was mature enough, and able to move out of Iran again at a time when she’d been through learning to fit in, but was still able to be herself.
We should all learn that lesson so quickly!